What i want Vs. What i need Vs. What i deserve

Sometimes i do ask myself ¿is this really what i want? ¿is this what i need? ¿is this what i deserve? ¿what is the best for me? questions that has not found an answer but remains on my head and continue to appear every time i found my self with time to think, not saying i don't think but sometimes you get to be not surrounded by people and you stop to analyze yourself or the situation. As of now i'm trying not to think on the past since it cannot be changed but i do try to think if what didn't happened was something i need it in my life or if it was something that i might see in the future again or it could be that one day i will need to deal with it again or was that situation something good for me, was it worth it? well so far it was..every situation has a impact in this case i didn't guess it but i was close. Not saying i liked what it left on me but i learned something new, something i can use in the future or something that just had to happen.

When i ask myself what is the best for me sometimes i get mad, because before it had happen, when i find the best for me it has a restriction or a conditional that you tend to accept since you are receiving something you believe you deserve but when that conditional turns out to someone that it doesn't make it happen is kinda difficult. I know nothing comes for free but when you put so much effort in something and at the end it doesn't depend on you that depends on somebody else which is not willing to move on, you have to give up leaving everything behind. Then you start asking yourself if it was your fault when is not.

What do i want? well that is some kind of annoying questions since what we all want is the best but when you seem to make a choice sometimes is not the right one or the best one for you but since you cannot have what is the best for you or what you want so then you need to stick to what you have and stay cool with what that comes with, meaning sometimes you need to accept it the way it is UNTIL you get tired and you end up like the previous paragraph (leaving everything behind and then you start asking yourself if it was your fault when is not.)

They say that "love overcomes everything" well that sometimes is not true but when you wish for something that you want it might come with some little details (as mentioned before) that by the time you just adjust yourself or give up. In the case of "what is the best for me" sometimes that question sounds kind of "selfish" but in life people need to be like that if not you will be careless about you.